Not a bucket, just a small pail list?

Before you read or listen any further I would just like to reassure you that I am not dying! When you are young and living life to the full, you never really have time to stop and think, what do I actually wish to do with my life. When I say that, I am not referring to getting a job or settling down in a cottage by the edge of a lake. I’m referring to those adventurous things like throwing yourself off a bridge with an elastic band attached to your ankles – hopefully firmly! Or even sailing around the world in a plastic dinghy with only a blogging camera for technology. Well those examples are maybe slightly extreme – well the second one definitely, but these adventures we could put together in a list that we would like to complete in the future. Well since I over fifty now, I thought it was about time I made a list of the three things I would like to achieve which I would call adventurous. Tagging it as a bucket list would be inappropriate so here is my small pail list for the near future!

You have to understand that I am not the most adventurous person around. I often seen adverts for GoPro cameras on Facebook and think about entering them but then suddenly realise that I am not actually the sort of person that would suit a GoPro. What do I mean by that? Well my life is quite routine and well…I don’t mind saying it…boring. I don’t jump of cliffs or even spontaneously get into my car and drive somewhere random. Taking a GoPro on my weekly shopping trip to Sainsburys (other supermarkets are available) is not really what will pull in the viewing figures on Youtube. So when I started to consider the events I want to do in the future I have to confess that they are not that exciting and you might actually think that they are quite- well – boring. However, this has never stopped me sharing things like this before.

  • Side of the stage – I think people are sick of me saying that I know how to sign. It is about the only ‘exciting’ thing about me although when I mention it, I see people saying with their faces – ‘not this one again’. I am, however, very proud of being able to do it, and although people get sick of it, I always want to take the skill/ability further. Being a musical fan (I even have a radio show dedicated to them!) I would want to one day actually sign during one of the songs live on the stage. During the festival season, I have seen, on Facebook, people signing the songs at the side of the stage and would love to actually achieve this but in a musical. Stood on the side of the stage signing – ‘I can hear the bells’ or ‘I’m not that girl’ as the talented person on stage sings in. I’m not sure whether my skills are actually up to it, but one skill which I do have is determination and perseverance and I would practice so hard! I once heard of signers actually signing the whole performance of plays – dressed in black and walking around next to the ‘real’ actors interpreting the whole play. Now that you would be brilliant.

  • And action! – I am an organiser. I don’t mean I live in a very organised abode – far from it. I mean that I like to organise things and/or people. I often used to say, before I realised that I was on the downward path and not really of the age to talk about my perfect job, that I would loved to be someone’s P.A. The idea of actually organising someone appeals to me, but since I am not really in the position of doing this, I have something else to aspire to in my small pail list. One of my colleagues once joked that after being on the radio and creating my own YouTube and Twitch videos I should move onto television. This, or theatre, really does appeal to me but I would not want to be on the stage or even in the spotlight at all. My job in this area would be the person who organises everything. You know who I mean, the person who sits in a room, with the lights off with a script and numerous buttons and sliders and organises the switches to different cameras, spotlights or presenters. Being in charge of the whole programme would really be exciting. It is almost as if you would get excited just before you went live but then, once the introduction titles started, that would be it, you would be in the moment and have to adapt as things happen. I guess that would be my adrendaline rush that other people would get from jumping out of a plane or off a cliff!

  • Voice Over – As you might be aware, I play quite a few MMOs in my spare time and watch a variety of D&D streams on Twitch. One thing which I have noticed more and more is that when people introduce themselves during the pre-adventure introduction many of them say that they are ‘voice actors’. Now, I am not a voice actor at all, in fact I probably have the least adaptive voice ever. I often try desperately, within my D&D/Shadowrun games, to use a variety of voices/accents, but really they all come out the same way and, instead of building up an atmosphere and tension, tend to result in building hilarity. However, I’m not one to be put off by this, and do continue to make attempts at suitable character voices and I am currently watching a range of videos with titles such as ‘How to speak with a Russian accent’. On my small pail list is not the requirement to be able to speak in a Russian accent. No, I want to aim much higher than this. When I am streaming Elder Scrolls Online, I like to engage with the story line and with the characters in the story and often I see people in the chat saying things such as – ‘Oh I recognise that voice, that is the person who did character x in game y’. Well that is what is on my small pail list! To perform a voice over for a character within a video game. I think there is something quite special to be embedded into a game so that you almost live on forever as that character in that game. I am not sure who said it or where it was said but I do remember that someone mentioned that you never die until everyone alive actually forgets who they were. Maybe this would be a way to maintain an everlasting legacy and live forever!

  • I am under no illusions. My small pail list is not one of those lists which would make good Youtube viewing and I don’t believe for a second that a company is going to see this and think, wow, let’s make this old man’s dreams come true. I am in that group of people like yourself, which means that the only way I am actually going to ensure these things happen is to email people and put myself forward and hope for the best. Whether I will actually manage to achieve these things is down to the laws of probability but I feel that actually talking about them I have actually gone halfway to getting there. You never know, the next time you are playing a computer game you might actually think – hang on I know that voice and, in the credits, you will see my name come up on the list.

    So what would be on your small pail list? What are you hoping to achieve in your life? As always, if you have any thoughts or comments on this post then please add them below or send them to me via any of the social media sites I frequent. You can keep up to date with my content by following me on Twitch, Twitter and Facebook. If you are interested in joining or playing Minecraft, then please check out my Minecraft webpage for details of joining the the server. Of course any subscribers to my YouTube channel are always appreciated.

    Have fun and I’ll catch you all later and, until then, consider yourself waffled!

    2 comments for “Let Me In! – Simon’s Cat – YouTube

    1. February 19, 2017 at 2:00 pm

      Would be cool to play an one off, one of the dungeon crawls you made! Maybe the 8 level one!!!

    2. March 21, 2017 at 12:05 am

      I miss those early days so much. The current state of rpg’s , the rpg xubculture if you like, doesn’t feel like it did back then. I can’t quite put my finger on it.

      I was introduced to Advanced D&D 1st Edition, by my sisters boyfriend (the BEST boyfriend of the many she had IMHO..), who showed me S3 Expedition to the Barrier Peaks module after discovering I enjoyed computer based adventure games, I was hooked immediately and it wasn’t too long before I was hanging around the local game shop, Games Gallery, from which I was invited to join in a game run by the assistant manager, who was to become my long and good friend Steve, who was coincidentally, the reason I got to work at the local branch of Games Workshop for a time. Working there, in those days, before it became a Warhammer only shop, was amazing. It was the proverbial kid in the sweet shop!. Staff discount made it even sweeter – 50% off GW’s own products, and 25% off everything else. We also ran a great rpg club, with about 60-80 members at its peak.
      I was always the GM for my main group as no one else had the time it took to prepare a game properly, though after a few changes to the group, and people from the club popping up, I eventually got to play. Games by a company called Fantasy Games Unlimited (FGU) were very popular in all of my groups. FGU sold games such as Bushido, Aftermath,Space Opera, Chivalry & Sorcery, Freedom Fighters, and Bunnies & Burrows, but there were many many more games, by many different companies, covering all sorts of genres – and I still have them all. Many were, as was the style back then, table and chart and rule HEAVY. We loved that. Comparing themto the current crop of “rules lite” systems, I would certainly go back to the old games instead. We played these games sometimes 5 days a week, as for a time we were all unemployed. It was all we did.
      I often spent days creating scenarios, making maps, creating player characters as well as npc’s. I found it quite therapeutic, as is miniature painting – thousands of the little buggers packed away testify to the time I spent doing it. My “toy soldiers” as my brother in law calls them…
      I used to get quite attached to my favourite characters, and whilst one or two died over the decades, most did not.
      For almost all of my characters I would go overboard by most people’s standards. I like to have an image for my characters, whether a photo or artwork. Sometimes I will see an image and that is the base for the whole character, built around the image.
      I always believed as a player, that giving the GM a detailed background, list of goals, motivations, friends, contacts and enemies, will help the GM bring my character into the game more, by using some of what I have given him in the game. As a GM I like to see what players come up with for their characters, and will often use it in the game. It involves the player more, makes the game more personal if part of the game is suddenly about them, and it can help the players become more invested in their characters.
      For myself, I would often map out the characters home, create a family tree, siblings, etc.
      For our Star Trek RPG (by FASA Corp), I created the whole crew of a 500+ personnel star ship… All as detailed player characters. Unnecessary and a bit OTT I know, but it helped bring every department on the ship alive, every member of the landing party was a person not simply a red shirt.

      I am often bemused whilst watching streams when I see the gm of a streamed game pull some “new” idea out of his box of tricks, and the players are like “wow!”, “that’s original”, “I would never have thought of doing it that way!”, knowing we did it 30-40 years ago.

      The games my most recent group and I played/ran, were very detailed games with a lot of depth. Quite dark games too, mature themed, and often very emotional and intense. Having played with the same people for nigh on 20 years, you create a bond, a closeness and familiarity that allows you to communicate in a way you couldn’t, with people you don’t know very well.
      I have been brought to tears several times in recent years during the last (decade long) game we played ,as some scenes were simply too emotional or powerful, overwhelming (GM was a bastard – but an EXCELLENT GM).

      Sadly the group folded, but the GM offered to keep the game going for just me, which he did for a few years, which to be honest I really needed, as it helped me through a bad depression at that time).
      Over the years I have experienced a lot of things because of rpg’s, and made some great friends, too. I have a lot to be grateful for, regarding rpg’s. I was discussing with my brother in law, my collection of rpg’s and miniatures. When he realised how much they are worth, (some regularly sell for £100’s!) he always tells me to sell sell sell. He doesn’t grasp what they mean to me .
      Yet I won’t. Part of me hopes and prays that I will get a local group together (even some of the old group!) and start using them again. But aside from that, as my memory fails, little by little each year, these boxes and books and miniatures on the shelves are my constant reminders of happy and sad and exciting moments, and great fun, and more importantly, great friends.

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